When I Let Myself Be Seen
Hidden in shadows of doubt,
Frozen in fear of rejection,
I hid.
I hid parts—and I hid the whole.
I was safe, yet still scared.
Even in my darkness,
I wanted to be seen.
I wanted to be noticed.
Doesn’t my heart shine?
Why doesn’t anyone see me?
I must not be good enough.
I must be punished for unseen sins.
Nobody loves me.
The story went on.
With every rejection, every failure,
Those beliefs grew stronger.
And I didn’t even know it.
I kept going.
I kept trying.
My heart was bright,
But still—no one saw it.
Why?
I wondered.
Why am I invisible?
Had someone put a spell on me?
In a way… they had.
But I was the one who cast it.
I was the one who agreed to stay small.
To forget.
To hide from a world
That could be fun.
That could be loving.
That could be joyful.
What am I missing?
I was missing life.
How can I join now? I asked.
My heart was the first to answer:
“You, my dear, are the Creator.
What do you want?”
“I want to live!” I cried.
“That’s okay,” my heart said.
“You don’t need to know how.
Just breathe.
Feel the breath.
Move with the breath.
And allow.”
It took time.
It took patience.
It took devotion to the Beloved within.
But something shifted.
The fear behind my sternum softened.
Little by little,
The breath found its way in.
I began to feel.
I realized I had not just
An invisibility cloak—
I had a numbing shield,
Placed when I was still a babe.
And as I felt… it felt good.
A warmth bloomed in my belly.
I felt welcome in the field around me.
I felt held.
The fear dislodged.
The mistrust dissolved.
A gate opened.
And joy began to trickle in.
I began to trust the field.
I began to notice the love
That had always been there.
I am still practicing being seen.
I am still learning what it means to be fully me—
Not what others want or expect,
But me.
It is through feeling that I discover myself.
That I choose.
That I open to more life.
More life flowing through me…
This is my prayer.
This is what my heart longs to feel.
And for the first time in a long time,
I am excited for this new journey.
